I dreamed a dream...

2012-01-04T02:16:00.000+08:00

I need a company.

To stay with me...

Wait for me...

Care for me...

2011-12-07T02:55:00.001+08:00

Behind the smile, hides an unbearable sense of empathy.

2011-11-30T00:59:00.002+08:00

I was never a happy person...

Because I know too darn much that it will never be enough in this world.

2011-11-13T16:51:00.001+08:00

I think too much after all...

2011-11-07T13:11:00.001+08:00

I am a catalyst of chaos and discord.

Don't ever give me an opportunity to be empathetic towards you...

2011-11-06T20:20:00.002+08:00

This heavy feeling after knowing something you did unexpectedly which jeopardized the trust you established between you and those involved, and being told to just sit down and watch the symphony of destruction you coordinated unfolds and manifests itself.

It hurts even more...

2011-11-03T14:11:00.001+08:00

Well...

You just killed me.

2011-10-16T17:24:00.000+08:00

I have no courage to love...

2011-10-08T03:39:00.000+08:00

Why is it so hard to show people I am not what I appear to be?!?

2011-09-22T03:50:00.001+08:00

Technically, our paths never crossed.

That pretty much explains it all.

2011-09-11T21:52:00.003+08:00

I lack the will to motivate myself...

People say slothfulness is my greatest weakness...

I must admit I put effort into being oblivious and showing apathy so as to constraint my extreme sense of empathy...

But,

ain't ignorance a bliss?

2011-09-10T00:23:00.002+08:00

Gonna start wakin' myself up...

I can feel it...

You're startin' to fade away from me...

2011-09-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

I need salvation from...

My lust for lust...

My greed for greed...

2011-09-03T15:20:00.004+08:00

God... how the heck should I handle such person??

Hope someone can enlighten me...

I won't be facing this for the last time...

This fuckin' hypocrite.

2011-08-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

So I should give myself a pat on the shoulder, and tell myself, that I haven't experience this kinda dramas my friends are facing through this phase of life...

yet...

2011-08-27T00:09:00.002+08:00

I assumed myself of the otherwise...

A fool's paradise...

I realized I am still deluding myself

2011-08-23T23:17:00.002+08:00

Regression...

How I wish I can restart from childhood...

2011-08-23T00:17:00.002+08:00

I dreamed of you last night,
Oh... the vagueness...

Is that the only memory I can have of you?
A memory of nobody?

2011-08-21T17:45:00.002+08:00

I am really aggravated...

Everything's not working out recently...

I'm always one step behind every opportunity that stands in my favor...

I'm easily agitated by my surroundings,

I cannot stand bullshits as much as last time...

What the fuck do I want from myself... oh... fuck me...

FUCK ME!

2011-08-08T09:21:00.003+08:00

IF ONLY WE KNEW EACH OTHER THROUGH DIFFERENT CIRCUMSTANCES

I shouldn’t have put myself into this when I had the choice to…

It was a folly of me knowing I’m not capable of this, yet, I let that person who gave me the choice to affect my decision…

And now I’ve experienced the emotions and dilemma, this filled me up emotionally, and mentally till now, and probably for a prolong period…

Since then, things had became stagnant…

A fruitful journey, yet, a foolish path I took…

“And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind?”

2011-07-22T00:45:00.002+08:00

Under this scourged body,

Lies a cold, desolated heart...

The calefaction,

The insomnia,

The deep contemplation beneath a never-ending war between optimism and pessimism.

Home is no longer my haven,

My family is at their limits in the imperturbable.

Am I going through a phase of the norm?

Or is my lust for knowledge and acceptance killing me throughout?

In contradiction,

How I kept doubting in magic,

yet, I yearn for it's existence to surface to me in any form.

My disposition varies in two, ludicrous, yet, discerned,

which one is the real me?

No one can truly know, even I myself could not comprehend.

This is deluding, but, I seemed to enjoy this voyage of "chaos".

How anticipating...

2011-07-15T00:59:00.003+08:00

Whatever justifications you all give me from now on...

I'll just accept it, for I do not care anymore...

So next time when you all shout out to me, I'll give y'all a holla...

And when I don't, I don't... that's thats...

2011-07-11T17:06:00.003+08:00

If you questioned me...

"Why wouldn't I feel angry when you all kept teasing/scolding me..."

And I answer, "No.."

"Why would I be angry with my close friends?"

Aren't you all showing me that you all are attempting to aggravate me?

But why?

You are all suppose to be my friend...

2011-07-11T17:06:00.002+08:00

If you questioned me...

"Why wouldn't I feel angry when you all kept teasing/scolding me..."

And I answer, "No.."

"Why would I be angry with my close friends?"

Aren't you all showing me that you all are attempting to aggravate me?

But why?

You are all suppose to be my friend...

2011-07-10T13:49:00.003+08:00

I have forsaken my beliefs...

I chose to be oblivious totally...

For now...

2011-05-16T21:38:00.000+08:00

Give me something to hope for...

for I can't stay optimistic forever...

2011-04-26T22:50:00.005+08:00

I am disappointed in my family...

I am even more disappointed with myself...

I just realized how useless I could be...

zero tolerance, whoever's fucking with me this time now...

Go Fuck Yourself...

2011-04-23T01:08:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of waking up in despair...

I don't wanna be left undone anymore...

2011-04-12T13:45:00.000+08:00

Keyboard cum keypad heroes... Fucking twarts...

2011-03-29T23:07:00.005+08:00

I suppose I became a tough nut to crack now...

lies...

2011-03-23T16:59:00.001+08:00

I wish I could spin by the beach...

2011-03-18T10:03:00.001+08:00

Its only when you leave
That I start to believe
That I can feel anything
It’s only when you leave me
Floating in the air
That I start freefalling

2011-03-15T16:59:00.000+08:00

Everything is beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful..
Everything is beautiful..
Let the music carry you..
Maybe I will follow you, forever!

Nowhere else I'd rather be,
When you're lying next to me..
Let the music carry us, together!

2011-03-10T15:09:00.003+08:00

I know what
You're hiding
Behind your Smile

Underneath
Skin aching
You hold a fire

It burns
For only me
Fire
Deep inside

Burns
For me to be
Your one and
Your only

Don't turn out your light
I'm burning too
Find your love in the dark

You just light the way
I'll be there soon
My one and my only

Don't turn out your light
I'm searching too
Find love in the dark

You just call my name
I reach for you
We'll find love in the dark

2011-03-03T00:43:00.002+08:00

Tonight was the night...

I was almost brought to tears again...
But you guys thought otherwise...
cause' I put up an act...

I thank you all...
thank you all...

2011-03-02T03:32:00.002+08:00

What to do...

Why am I feelin' down when I'm supposed to be at the other way round...

2011-03-02T03:32:00.001+08:00

What to do...

Why am I feelin' down when I'm supposed to be at the other way round...

2011-02-20T01:52:00.003+08:00

Looks like a new problem surfaced...

2 house in our hands, house B is smaller than house A.

Person A don't mind moving into house B.
Person B wants to come back and move into house B.

This would result in being cramped up, which pisses Person A off.
But Person B do not want to move back to house A, reason's unknown.

So if all move to house B, either Person A, or B, would not live there.
And if all stay in house A, Person B would not come back.

So what now???

2011-01-27T10:27:00.000+08:00

I am so, so, so...

Sorry...

2011-01-20T21:17:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry...

Mom... Dad...

Love you.

2011-01-19T18:18:00.000+08:00

What the fuck have I gotten myself into...

Again...

2011-01-04T23:44:00.003+08:00

Food for thought...

How do I reassure myself that I actually like you...
after all these years...

no, seriously.

2010-12-27T01:36:00.000+08:00

And i say... Hey~!

What's goin' on?

Wish-list

2010-12-24T15:01:00.001+08:00

1) Shirts

2) Belts

3) Socks

4) Cap?

2010-12-24T14:57:00.002+08:00

Stay with me...

Won’t you wait for me...

Care for me...

And never say never...

-"Never say Never" by Armin Van Buuren

Saturday Night LIVE!

2010-12-05T00:29:00.002+08:00

Is this what karma has been accumulating for me?

Till losing a friend, a brother, before New Year's eve...

Keep em' coming... Let's see how much I can take...

2010-12-01T19:30:00.002+08:00

I'm a douche...

I'm rejecting my family's persisting love showered upon me...
I cannot take it anymore...

fuck myself...

Thursday Nights...

2010-10-28T21:02:00.002+08:00

I'm blindly aware now...

I'm just gonna leave myself to lady luck...

Wednesday Nights...

2010-10-20T19:24:00.000+08:00

2010-10-09T17:29:00.003+08:00

The rest...

You told me you'd be a listening ear, yet you're not opening up to me, fair?

If only we could meet up just once, things might had been different...

I don't believe in magic anymore...

I Want you so bad...

Tuesday Nights...

2010-10-05T23:02:00.003+08:00

Again...

I ask myself...

What the fuck have I been doing with my life...

Monday Blues...

2010-09-27T21:44:00.001+08:00

You'll never know how much you have affected me...

2010-09-26T07:58:00.001+08:00

Hm...

Back to square one...

ta...

2010-09-22T21:17:00.004+08:00

Feeling the misery?

Working non-stop for these few days...
Shitty hours, no job satisfaction...
And long irregular sleeps...
And back to work...

And still can't get over you...

But what to do?
Since the distance is stretching...
And my balls are shrinking...

Wednesday Nights...

2010-09-15T23:39:00.003+08:00

Roaming fucking freely now cause exams are finally over...
These 2 days have been a fucking solo torture of books and mind-fucks...

But still...

There is something that bothers me...

What to do...
What to do...
What to do...

Next stop... work... (oh god this is gonna suck so bad...)
No money... no honey...

Saturday Night LIVE!

2010-09-11T21:48:00.003+08:00

This "rehab" session is slowly takin' it's place...
indulgence in studies really helped...
though the exam periods are gonna be over soon...

I guess we're only modern day pen pals...
My heart is still lil' racy...

2010-09-08T00:55:00.002+08:00

I'm opening myself to you...
More and more...
Slowly by slowly...
Day by day...

But...
Are you doing it too?

I don't know...

Monday Blues...

2010-09-06T18:36:00.003+08:00

Well, like they always say...

It felt a lil weird not doing something that you do everyday for one day...
It gave me some food for thought though...

In a crossroad now? hm.... for now...

Friday Nights...

2010-09-04T02:14:00.002+08:00

"Get into a relationship only when you know how to take care of yourself..."

Tough words...
Meant for you my bro, Lester, and to me as well...

Hmm........... I'll see about it...

Alamak, my mother bleed cause I ask her sew for me... *smack head*

Wednesday Nights...

2010-09-01T16:26:00.004+08:00

What have I done...

That one moment of anger would've ruined the bigger picture...
But the hurt received was uncalled for...
As it wouldn't have been as deep as earlier...

I'm getting deeper unto another form as well...
As day by day, I get deeper unto you...

Saturday Night LIVE!

2010-08-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

야릇야릇한 널 향한 나의 맘
들리니 I need you I love you
이런이런 날 어서 가져가줘
들리니 I need you I love you

Oh내 맘을 담아 날리는 내kiss
너를 향한 사랑 담아
넌 아직 잘 모를 거야
내 맘이 어떤지
알면서도 이렇게
날 혼자 둔거니

L.O.V.E
사랑이란 이름 아래 난 내 맘
대 로 지 이
너도 역시 날 좋아하고
있을 거라고 믿는다네
난 너를 그려 매 순간에
하루 종일 현실을 난 망각해
하지만 이럴 수 밖에

아른아른한 너의 목소리
들리니 I need you I love you
나긋나긋이 난 대답하겠지
들리니 I need you I love you
야릇야릇한 널 향한 나의 맘
들리니 I need you I love you
이런이런 날 어서 가져가줘
들리니 I need you I love you
L O V E L O V E
L O V E L O V E

아이 그러지 말고 얘기를 해봐
늦기 전에 말을 해봐
나 아닌 누군가로는
안되는 걸 알아
깐깐한 널 알잖아
나 밖엔 없잖아

내게 다가올 듯 말듯한
네 행동에 다른 사람들은
모르는 듯 해
언제나 니 시선의
그 끝은 바로 나나나 나였어
처음부터 느끼던 바였어
그대여 용기를 내 어서
솔직해져 봐 yeah that's all

아른아른한 너의 목소리
들리니 I need you I love you
나긋나긋이 난 대답하겠지
들리니 I need you I love you
야릇야릇한 널 향한 나의 맘
들리니 I need you I love you
이런이런 날 어서 가져가줘
들리니 I need you I love you
I need you I want you
I love you L.O.V.E

Fly
너와 함께라면 난
Cry
I don't cry no more aiight
네 세계로
내가 들어가게
나에게로
다가와줘 ma babe
그 누가 나를 차지해도
I want you need you
love you babe
Is it all right
Is it all right
그렇지 않잖아 모든 게 차이나

내 웃음 뒤에 숨긴 눈물이
흘려 내려 버리기 전에
나의 손을 잡아줘
그리고 내게 말해줘 L.O.V.E

아른아른한 너의 목소리
들리니 I need you I love you
나긋나긋이 난 대답하겠지
들리니 I need you I love you
야릇야릇한 널 향한 나의 맘
들리니 I need you I love you
이런이런 날 어서 가져가줘
들리니 I need you I love you

Thursday Nights...

2010-08-26T18:34:00.004+08:00

One question for tonight...

"Do you like me?"

Saturday Night LIVE!

2010-08-22T02:02:00.002+08:00

Another b'day wish to Jun Er, today's dinner was great and the companies were good...
Met up with some of the old barker's, had a nice chat here and there...

Hm... looking for more work this last week of hols, screw the books... But there are still so many things to do... T.T

OMG la....... I'm freakin' turning into pimple man!!! *cry* T.T *cry*

Tuesday Nights...

2010-08-18T00:02:00.000+08:00

I'm worried...

Worried that I would be avoided...
If I pushed too much...

Pull?

Tueday Nights...

2010-08-10T23:31:00.005+08:00

Wow...

What the hell was I even thinking today...

It's either I be a good boy...
Or be a f***ed up guy for the rest of my life...

I can't decide...

Sunday Bloody Sunday

2010-08-09T00:07:00.002+08:00

Lets see, what was the over all of Kai Jun's b'day...

Friday Nights...

2010-08-07T01:44:00.005+08:00

Love...

What do I think bout' it for now?

Do I possess it?
Do I need more?
Do I share more?
Do I make more?

Am I getting it for the sake of getting it?
Am I deprived for another form of it?
Am I giving it more than I am receiving?
Am I being in it?

superficial? foolishness? infatuations? jealousy?

Tuesday Nights

2010-08-04T01:24:00.005+08:00

Alamak....

So much due work...
So much things happening this past few days...
A few decisions to make and some balls to grow here and there...

Study Break *cough*HOLIDAYS*cough* coming soon, many many activities packed within these 3 weeks...

phew...

Monday Blues...

2010-07-27T00:55:00.003+08:00

Hm... Spring... what a wonderful season...
People around me are all goin' through their respective seasons...

I'm not being too much, ain't I?
Just showing the inside me with some twists...

*sigh* I'm still being ishy washy... wada douche I can be...

Tuesday Nights...

2010-07-20T20:18:00.002+08:00

hm....

What to do... what to do.... what to do...
Is opportunities opening for me????

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wquCCFvbNhI

I think this will a new collection to trance XD

Monday Blues...

2010-07-13T01:17:00.002+08:00

Oh? Theres all these pw that came outta nowhere and piled up in my doorstep? Oh come on... one's down today alrdy, 4 more to go...

I jus' realized... the only time I can feel anger, is when I see food get wasted, I just feel so negative that I would make a fuss outta it, eventually getting over with it in the end...

People usually get pissed when they get dissed, for me, I want to be angry too, but I jus get over with it fast... I mean last time someone who attempted to piss me off failed.. guess Jarren's right, I'm too optimistic, goods, and cons...

I also realized... patience is virtue... be it in a poker game, getting a gf, getting back with someone... and teachers that doesn't hear your explanation and jus piss you off...

wait a while... it'll eventually be to your advantage...

Wednesday Nights...

2010-07-07T22:54:00.002+08:00

I will not be paranoid....

I will not be paranoid...

I will not be paranoid...

I will be myself....

I will be myself...

I will be myself...

Sunday Nights...

2010-06-27T22:37:00.001+08:00

I'm regressing back into my childhood nightmares after ytd poker session...

Brr.... all those army stories... Pontianaks, little girls and ah ma, and ball rolling around...

Brrr....

Friday Nights...

2010-06-25T14:16:00.001+08:00

I'm starting to feel appreciated again...

THANK YOU

Friday Nights

2010-06-18T15:16:00.005+08:00

*sigh*...

What do I do now? Whatever happens... I can't feel anger in me...
I never went deep into that emotion before...
But I don't wanna joke around already...

Feels as if I'm being used...

Saturday Night LIVE!

2010-06-06T02:30:00.002+08:00

I'm 18, male, the third child in the family, and needing a reflection...

I think I've alrdy done a good job contributing to the family.

But some thought I did not...

They expect even more...

Coming from what returns to me, I felt this was utter b.s...

Upon first few moments of thoughts, and listening to the nagging,

I'm sry...

I'm 18 and I'm still leeching money off you two...
I'll find ways to support myself and I'll get back with you all...

Tuesday Nights...

2010-05-25T23:13:00.001+08:00

I need a distraction...

Really? We humans, are so blinded by our daily lives that we actually don't see the mistakes in ourselves and instead, push the blame on others? Including your dear ones?

I mean, I got back home late, she left the pandan leaves stove boiling, forgetting to turn off, thus, letting it dry up, and when they get back from whatever they were doing, she finds the ingredients dry, she actually scolded me for being oblivious to my surrounding? Insisting that we living in one roof should look out for other's stuff when in the first place is she being oblivious to her own surroundings?

I did my share of chores, clothes and dishes and floors, and I felt it was to be done due to filial piety and after the work was done, nothing was said and all went to norm and dirt again, till I have to be called to do it again. I am responsible for my actions, I clean up my mess, other's mess, once a while, in the interest of fairness...

I don't even hang around home much these days due to school activities and one small mistake such as this could actually be overwritten by the rest of the effort I've put in for the family? This would make me stay even later in school, drifting away from the desires of getting home except when I needa bed...

I dono wad to do anymore... Don't really feel like home to me anymore... saddening...

Saturday Night LIVE!

2010-03-27T22:47:00.002+08:00

HA! GPA 1.9 and still get promoted w/o repetition of modules. SUCK ON THAT SP!
Money, Oooo... you're driving me hard baby, to get what I want...
I see what I like, I like what I see... hehehe...

Tuesday Nights...

2010-03-24T02:30:00.002+08:00

It's been a while... how time flies... it's gonna be the 2nd year soon, I hope, for myself at least, also do wish all my classmates gets promoted...

The worse for me is over alrdy... so free now, holidays since end of Feb? I dono, was facing certain stuff and getting out of it, not remembering what's goin' around...

Results coming out soon, how anxious... waiting, and waiting...

Work sessions is over, now spending the dough I've obtained w/o much considerations, I need some control over that...
Want this, want that, so many wants, but need control...

The WANTS:

1) bigger chest, abs
2) PS 3!!!
3) Never ending money
4) Get DVD controller fixed
5) a chick? *shy* hehehe...
6) a new, more slacky job?

procrastinations.... hm...

2010-02-16T14:05:00.002+08:00

I am not enjoying this CNY...

Too much in my head... the good and the bad is rubbing salt in my head more than ever...
I hate what I'm doing right now, it's adding more weights to me day by day...
Shouldn't have been so readily pick this choice so as to get it over with...
Me bitchin' around now? no I don't think so, I'm just doubting this process that is psycho-ing into my mind...
Me accepting this? I'm trying to, it's the on and off ya noe? I'm indecisive and ain't lovin' it!
Now i have to even think of the words to write so as to feel internally correct...

Don't get me? I just want to turn back the time... to last year November...

Monday Blues...

2010-01-25T19:35:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year's resolution: Kill money...

1) 1 light grey or darker color jeans
2) 1 black shirt
3) 1 white shirt
4) 1 dark brown shorts
5) 2 printed shirts (DONE)

Tuesday Nights...

2010-01-19T21:09:00.002+08:00

Its gonna be a busy month...
ONOW CIP at some community centre and the zoo...
upcoming exams...
upcoming seminar...

I still need 4 digits in my pig belly, need a job... need a job...

Friday Nights...

2010-01-09T00:33:00.004+08:00

*sigh*.... why does it feel heavy to lie... (ps: its a white lie)

I need 4 digits in my pig, by any means necessary...

what "great" adventure awaits me...

I needa know...

Monday Blues...

2010-01-05T00:29:00.000+08:00

Its the first working day... wad am I to do... first night, and I felt really really heavy in my heart...
Ain't got balls to share my pasa, it's a lil too to into the personal part...
Only music can relief and make me forget bout it-
For now...

Tuesday...

2009-12-22T15:15:00.000+08:00

*sigh* this year passed so fast... another upcoming Christmas day and as usual, no plans... nvr celebrated christmas, not surprised... hopefully something exciting happens on that day...

Will there be a new resolution to life next year?
Will 2012 be happening?
Will something come into my life?
Will I have omni-like powers? XD
Will I have enough to feed myself and spend on recreations?

too much to think about... now jus' needa fill up thy stomach...

Monday Blues...

2009-12-08T01:25:00.003+08:00

You know one thing I hate bout' livin' in Geylang? The fact that every morning you would be walking down through that lorong which coincidentally have a rubbish truck ahead of you clearing the bins around the area...

Avoid it? impossible... it stops per bins, you can't walk slow, you can't turn around, you can only walk towards death itself slowly... And when you're past it... Ooohhh.....

"The foulest stench is in the air
The funk of forty thousand years" -thriller

Curses to us for creating such "fine" essence for mother nature...

Today indeed was Monday Blues... marks the start of exams, sucks dicks to be sitting on it... I admitted this paper, prog design, I wasn't prepared for it, was psp-ing and movies yesterday... hell yeah life's great if u ain't stress... this douche course of mine did gave me a tiny bit of strains and hex marks on my forehead...

Monday Blues

2009-11-30T22:53:00.002+08:00

Hm... After some time away from society, then went out to the public again with Jin... I realized some factors...

I have needs...
If I need needs, I need money,
If I need money, I need work,
If I need work, I need time,
If I need time, I need nothing...

So whats the drift?

2009-11-23T11:06:00.011+08:00

Un Jin's 2-day Torment...

(THE SCUMS! with suan's gal XD)

1st Night...

(My b'day leh...)
(Pwn u all in pool...)
(F*** la eric, shoot better!)
(Pwn u all la... *SWIPES*)
(Pro posture here sio...)
(NOOB POSTURE XD)

2nd Night...

(nb u all saboh me stand on chair...)
(Dogger Face...)
(hehehehehehe~)

2009-11-19T10:55:00.002+08:00

("Trainer RED wishes to fight!")

*sigh* jus' finished my programme design assignment, hopefully its a pass, teacher so darn strict la, over means over lol... And jus' when you thought you had all the answers, test done, hands down, no, he jus' gave the class assignment 2 to be completed by next week, 5 times harder, nuff said...

真是一山比一山高啊...

Wednesday Nights...

2009-11-18T21:58:00.002+08:00

Today showcased capoeira infront of a crowd jus' for a show, wtf man... wasn't in condition due to earlier injuries during the bathizador, *sigh*...

Tmr's Thursday... Thrusdays, I hate it... & F*** MY INTERNET!!!

Saturday Night LIVE!

2009-11-15T01:16:00.006+08:00

*phew* finally my 4 day capoeira course is over and boy am I glad I got my first cordão (rope) after getting my ass whooped by one of those teachers XD, got tripped 2X and tossed 1X, our play ended in less then 30 secs with me doin' less than 2 kicks lolololol... then after that went for their bbq and ya, thats bout it... credits to Mestre Pintor and my teacher, Prof Claudinho...

congrats to SP and RP Bantus pplz, WOOO~~~~

Another thing, DJ Max Technika finally arrived in Singapore!!! Me and Mol and maybe Eric are doomed to play this game jus' like how we did when we played Max tune, gods knows how much are we gonna spend, rite? mol and kee XD...

Saturday Night LIVE!

2009-11-07T23:06:00.003+08:00

I can't use good words to express my feelings now... But another issue jus' came to me when I went out to the public today...

My face... besides being over mature and funny, does it include being beatable once you look @ it?

I dono, ask yourself, I asked myself, "You can't blame me... my face is born like that, I dono whether is handsome or not, its jus' me..." its not like I love to frown, I jus' can't smile vry lil since young, cause I lacked in communication and public image, more ever, I don have a nice set of teeth, so y bother?

So the thing is, when I'm outside, guys tend to look @ me like they buey song like tat wan2 punch me or wad, I don't want this, in summary, i don't want trouble to come find me jus' cause' of this stupid reason, I've had it during my sec sch life, it was the darker side of it... I avoided it, and jus' when I thought it was kinda over cause I laid low... it happened again, I noticed as I was walkin' around orchard, 3 or more wadeva I care guys were like staring @ me like typical "stare wad stare" scenario, of course, I find no reason to see guys, only gals, so i jus' looked away... they don approach me, then so be it, I know how I should act publicly, so ya...

I want ppl to look @ me and think "wa, handsome..." and not the other way round like "fuk, his face cb face, cannot tank..."

"eew, nerdy, eew, so old?" would've been a more preferred choice...

*sigh* I'd really needa change my looks man, really needa...

Monday Blues...

2009-11-02T21:14:00.002+08:00

I look old meh? I look funny meh?

This few days have been workin' shitty hours, but the pay is darn good I assure you ;) you noe wad I'm talkin' bout, Suan, Mol... thx for intro the job uh Suan...

Then yesterday went John's hse to leech some of his knowledge into my work XD, thx again man, and also went killin' some cockroaches, you sure live up to your dictatorship John...

Wednesday Nights...

2009-10-21T22:14:00.004+08:00

*sigh* Whoevers looking high up above pls bless my family and help em turn over the tide...

Been having fish related food for breakfast, lunch, AND dinner, lol, wonder if it does good to my body...

Still hooked to Girls Generation like a typical fan... I can't believe, this is the first time I'm hooked to korean stuff... Taeyeon so cute, dak boleh tahan la... So is Hyoyeon, how can she be underrated la... no one talks bout her, she how hot la... lol...

Monday Blues...

2009-10-20T08:23:00.007+08:00

Sch started... *sigh* shit happens... hate it, live it, this is life... More maths, more science, jus' love it... Wad was the last thing I did? look below...

(It was meant to be a night cycling trip...)

(You call this cycling?!)

(Instead, we spent the night here...)

(The main event, waiting for sunrise...)

(... wad sunrise...)

Woah~ Luckily Mdm Theo's plans were cancelled, or else lagi more stress sio...

Tuesday Nights...

2009-10-13T23:19:00.003+08:00

Back from camp since Sun...

Comments to Soon Beng and his group of people for making such an enjoyable camp, mainly cause its slack :P...

nb... y my sch must make ppl choose extra modules other sch cannot, nb... some more the module I wanted all taken within seconds upon appointment, learnt my lesson alrdy, next time camp @ comp when have to take the next module...

Night cycling next... wads gonna happen... I wonder...

Wednesday Nights...

2009-10-08T00:42:00.004+08:00

John uh... John... hurry up and make ur choice uh...

time ain't waiting for u like how u wait for orange uh...

Later kenna screw by mdm theo not funny leh...

Tuesday Nights...

2009-10-07T02:14:00.003+08:00

O lord... forgive me, for I had sinned, engulfing ants in flames, and mis-using bus fare to my convenience...

Speaking of bus fare misconduct... today on my way to Luke house, as always I jus' dump in a dollar for like a 10++ stops ride, knowing the cost was more than a dollar, i did not care...

So after some stops nearing Luke's hse, he came... I call him, the 67 bus hunter, for I have encountered him twice, both in number 67, and was caught once by him and kenna a summon of 20 bux... _|_ to hell with him... as I said... upon his arrival, he was the last to board, and the bus shuttle was about to close, I hurried to the entrance and spammed the bell, and escaped I did, without another 20 bux fine, I have escaped death, and I dono when will it come for me again...

Then at Luke's hse, had ps2 spamming with him, mostly street fighter and Kof... pwned u Luke, pwned u!!! lol... And "no seat belts... fuck seat belts..." who needs em? definitely not me XD

2 things which worry me for now...

1) some task which my teacher gave to me and John...
2) life... I'm dead serious...

Monday Blues...

2009-10-05T00:35:00.007+08:00

Being a couch potato at home rocks baby!!! No shit goin' on and stuff, so darn peaceful... (ps: this is a sarcastic remark...)

More photos of genting added :)

(same zodiac family...)

(my mom was stuck @ the canyon, cause she jumped for joy before us XD sry mom...)

(theres my mom.... XD)

2009-09-27T01:22:00.001+08:00

(The benevolent Buddha)

(Guan Ying Ma dot com)

I ain't being religious, but tat was all I could upload from my genting trip -_-"